Nurul Ulfah - detikHealth
Hannah Camille (photo: dailymail)
Jakarta, When he saw himself in the mirror, Hannah Camille was very ugly, fat, useless, and even hated himself. 26 year-old girl was the victim of disease Body dysmorphic disorder (BDD). The disease got him making a suicide attempt at least eight times he was so hated in his own body.
Hannah has always felt he got a view of the contempt of her male friends. "Every time I see myself in the mirror, I feel fat. I saw that was protruding belly, wide hips and big legs. I be able to view any part of my body is skinny, but I removed it from my mind," said Hannah as quoted from Dailymail, Monday (16/11/2009).
"I can not stand the thought ugly people as if disgusted me. I just focus on that alone which ultimately makes me depressed and attempted suicide. It was useless to my life. I am so not afraid to die," said Hannah.
Hannah began experiencing symptoms of BDD when the onset of puberty, that is when he was 9 years old. At age 12, she was anorexic, and at the age of 16 he became very depressed to the point did not want to go to school. Experiments were performed Hannah suicide at age 15 years using a pain relief medication overdose.
Although already attempted suicide several times, but he always managed to be saved. He was saved by his friends and two times rescued by Heather Samuels, 69-year-old woman who turns out to be a therapist. He also suggested that Hannah photo therapy.
And it turns out the photo therapy managed to cure the disease slowly Hannah. "By looking at the pictures, I think of me as part of an art, not as myself. Therapy that really helped me accept myself what it is without thinking about the shape of the body. Photos made me feel like a man in full , "said Hannah.
"Maybe it's BDD disease will never end, but by saying that I was fine all of them can be overcome. If you are looking in the mirror and say 'I look okay', then I can go out and do everything normally. I can go shopping or a picnic, I feel much better than before, "said Hannah.
Now, Hannah tried to encourage others to do the therapy BDD sufferers photos and to see his body as an object that should be accepted and appreciated. "Life seems more beautiful when we can accept ourselves as we are," he added.